Bab, Everyone says it is good to have good memories, although maybe if they weren´t so good you would not suffer so much when they have gone and you want them back again so much. Last year was the nicest christmas I can remember having, it was our godsons first christmas and the whole family enjoyed it so much, it just felt like everything was so perfect. This year everything is the total opposite, you are no longer here and for me christmas no longer exists, it is just another painful day, even more painful than the "ordinary" days and I just want it to pass quickly. I just wish so much and would do anything for you to still be with us. Love u xxx